My entire life faithfulness has been a struggle for me. Even now, just seven weeks from leaving for Africa, my faith seams so weak. I think of how faithful God has been to me, all my life, but especially in the past few months. I've always dreamed of going to Africa to serve my Lord God, even in the times when I was denying God outright. It feels as if as soon as I came back to Him this trip was set before me. How do I say thank you? By letting stress in... Yeah, I know, thats horrible, right? Well, God knows. I tend to stress out easily, while doing so my focus is so strong on whatever it is that I don't need to be worrying about. I can feel God standing there, wrapping His arms around me, allowing me to cry in His arms. Sadly, I don't always acknowledge this. Tonight though, in a moment when I felt fine, He held me. Doing everything I could to keep my mind off of tomorrows stress I recieved a video from Beth, one of my lovely teammates. I had my t.v on to CMT watching a movie, as soon as I saw the video she sent me I started crying. I'd like to share that video with you.
This video opened my eyes. The things that I stress over are a lot of whats in the past, or things that I cannot change. Why? My faith needed a kick start, and tonight I recieved it. God met me in my livingroom, and gave me exactly what I didn't know I needed. I rediscovered my faith tonight. I pray that if your faith is lacking at all, that Jesus Christ will meet you where ever you're at. That the Great Almighty God will restore you, that you will have the faith of a child, and cry in His arms. God bless!!
